Friday, August 12, 2016

Couldn't Say It - A Company Member's Story

Couldn't Say It 
A Company Member's Story

It feels odd for me to write these words down. I guess it’s because I have to admit certain things that I haven’t said out loud in a while. However, this is a story that I think needs to be heard:

My senior year of high school, I think I was assaulted. I say I think because things are still weird from that night. I hadn’t had any alcohol. I hadn’t had any drugs. I was just driving a guy home from a cast party of a show that I had directed. I say “think” because afterwards everyone that I went to about the incident just said not to worry about it. They said it was "just a guy thing." They said it really wasn’t assault since it was "a crush kind of thing."


You see I was driving a guy home, and when we stopped in front of his house, he wouldn’t get out of my car. He said that "we had a connection." He was pursuing that connection. I couldn’t say no. I didn’t feel safe saying no.




I was trapped. I did not give consent. I did not want him to kiss me and touch me. I couldn’t say no. But my body did say no. Was me trying to duck out of the way not enough? Was me checking my phone every minute not enough? Was me turning away not enough?

When he finally got out of the car, I drove home so quickly and in such a state. I experienced my first panic attack that night in the car. My second one followed right after, once I got home. Therapy became the only way to help it for the weeks after it. When I told others though, it was like an echo of O’Dell’s line “Boys will be boys.”




There is a problem with this world, and we know it. We know that there is a rape culture, but it is so hard to break through hundreds of years of stigma and presumptions. Even the kindest of people can have these myths stuck in their head. I have seen it first hand. 

I sincerely hope that our show can start a little change. Even if it is only one person that realizes their biases, that will be enough.

Although I have gone through the therapy telling me “it’s not my fault,” the guilt is still there. The damage has been done. For all the victims out there that feel guilty, please know that you are not alone. The guilt should not be there, and it isn’t your fault. I carry my guilt like a shield, but I want to use it to protect others--

for the next girl or guy until there is no next girl or guy.




- Posted on behalf of a member of the Pepperdine Scotland company

Wednesday, August 10, 2016

Call for Call ( with reference to @ColinHattersley, @PaulaDunn #TheRoseyProject, @RCCGlasgow, @RapeCrisisScot)


Call for Call
written by Melanie Allen
photography by Colin Hattersley & Brittney Lucy 


                                                         photo by Colin Hattersley Photography 


I am no longer just calling a show. That may sound a little weird since I’m the stage manager, and that is actually my job, but I am no longer just calling a show. I am responding to a calling. Last week we opened The Interference, and afterwards we were privileged to be able to host a benefit for Rape Crisis Scotland. This show is larger than us now, and it continues to grow every single day. The Rape Crisis benefit is a wonderful example of the impressions that we are making. People like Paula from the Rosey Project are able to have another platform to help people. Normally, the Rape Crisis Center has very little funds, and most of its workers are volunteers. That continues to confound me considering how much work these people put into supporting this center. There is an injustice in the world, and they are combatting it with little funding and not enough people. This is something that breaks my heart.


The past 43 days in Scotland have taught me a couple things:
1) Theatre is able to call out the injustice in the world. 
2) This small world means that what we do here can also impact people elsewhere. And 
3) Theatre allows the silenced to speak.

                   


Yes, I will still call stand-bys and gos. However, what I am also doing is responding to the calling that Lynda, Paula, Cathy, and everyone in this process has challenged me with. The benefit on Tuesday showed me that the show we are producing is a part of a big issue. So thank you to every single person who has been helping with this process. From the original development to the final load out. Thank you to Lynda, Michael John, C-Venues, all of our master class teachers, Cathy, Alex, Paula, and everyone. Every single person has contributed to calling out the injustice, impacting others, and giving a voice to a silenced person.


From the little window that Nick and I have to see the stage, I can still see these things at work in each of the actors. I am incredibly proud of everyone, and I hope that more people are going to be able to see the work that we are putting on.

Saturday, August 6, 2016

Teamwork




Teamwork
written by Parker Johnson
photography by Brittney Lucy

As we enter our last three weeks in Scotland, I think about how I have learned much about the importance of teamwork and strong work ethic. It has been quite the journey thus far, and I am so proud of the work that everyone has put in.

It is a difficult thing to bring a group of Americans to Scotland to perform an original piece in the Edinburgh Fringe Festival. Our goal could not be achieved if it was not for every person and their work put in to making this production happen. Everyone has a job and has to do it to the best of their ability. Whether it is performing or behind the scenes, every person has to live up to the expectations of the rest of the company. The production would not be possible without sound, lighting, set, stage management, props, costumes, actors, etc. Not one piece of the puzzle can be missing. Everyone depends on one another in this process and I am proud to say that I have been a part of such a hard working group of artists.

It is extremely exciting to think that all this work paying off, as we are finally telling our story to audiences.

This is an important story and one that needs to be heard.

Sexual assault is real and is happening in our world today. It is present in the news.

I believe that our production has the possibility of giving victims a voice. It is my hope that our team work, our hard work, this story, will hopefully do just that.